love this song

this are some of the Korean songs that i love... so I posted there english translation. I actually love there lyrics, the rhythm of the song... I love it... and it inspires me.. hehehe... these songs are from boys over flowers, brown sugar macchiato.

Lucky
(English Translation)

when it gets hard, lucky in my life
you come towards me like a dream
when i get sad, lucky in my dream
you hold me tight with warm embrace

i smile like this, always
even when the world makes it hard
i don't ever want to show my tears.
even though you don't know my heart yet
because i can still keep your smile, even from afar,
it's a relief

when i want to cry, lucky in my love
you look so handsome in my imagination
when i'm frustrated, lucky in my world
you hold me tight like a dream

i smile like this, always
even when the world makes it hard
i don't ever want to show my tears.
even though you don't know my heart yet
because i can still keep your smile, even from afar,
it's a relief

everything is beautiful. i'm so happy.
i make a wish again in this lonely world

i smile like this, always
even when the world makes it hard
i don't ever want to show my tears.
even though you don't know my heart yet
because i can still keep your smile, even from afar,
it's a relief

take one step towards me

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Starlight Tears
(English Translation)

The white starlight wraps around my tears
My tears fall against the warm breeze
Can you feel it?
The quiet trembling for you

I draw you on white paper
your warm smile envelopes me
is this love?
i see you even when i close my eyes

i will be waiting for you
i will wait for you
i wont show my tears any longer
you let me know about this false love
i wont let go because it's you

im walking through our memories
tears well up in my heart
what should i do?
i even long for you in my dreams

i will be waiting for you
i will wait for you
i wont show my tears any longer
you let me know about this false love
i wont let go because it's you

look at me like the stars in the sky
can't you be the one in my heart

i will be waiting for you
i will wait for you
i wont show my tears any longer
you let me know about this false love
i wont let go because its you

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The Heart Seemed To Do It Somehow
(English Translation)

even though i tell it not to go,
even though i tell it to stop
my heart keeps going towards you
it doesn't wear out, it doesn't decrease
why is my love like this

one by one, i count and count the memories
my heart can't rest for even a moment
it'll just become baggage that becomes hard to control
why can't i even throw them away

really, my heart must have done something somehow
i must have become a fool that's blind from love
just one place, everyday one place
looking at the sad light that is you
even the tear glands must be broken
my tears won't stop
i love only you, only you
can't you just tell me?

even if i hold out my hands,
no matter how much i call out
you're always far from me
it'll be a love that becomes painful scars
why can't i erase it

really, my heart must have done something somehow
i must have become a fool that's blind from love
just one place, everyday one place
looking at the sad light that is you
even the tear glands must be broken
my tears won't stop
just one word.. the one phrase that you love
can't you just tell me?

i try to comfort myself with the lie
that i'm happy if you just smile
because the place you're going towards is not me
the lonely tears flow

really, my heart must have done something somehow
i must have gone crazy over this hard love
can't have you, can't forget you
waiting for you day by day

i must have gotten ill from missing you so much
from loving you too much
just one thing.. your heart, that one thing
can't you just share it with me

can't you love me

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Because I'm Stupid by SS501
(English Translation)

because i'm so foolish, i know only you
you who are looking at someone else,
you probably don't know my heart

there is no me in your day,
probably not even in your memories
but i'm looking at only you as my tears continue to fall

i'm happy with looking at your back figure
though you still don't know my heart
though at the end, you'll just brush past me

the days that i miss you so much
the days when it's too hard to bear
the words "i love you" are dancing on my lips
once again, alone, crying for you
once again, alone, missing for you
baby, i love you. i'm waiting for you

there is no me in your day,
probably not even in your memories
but i'm looking at only you,
making memories by myself

to me, love is like a beautiful wound
even though i see your pretty smile,
i can't smile with you

the days that i miss you so much
the days when it's too hard to bear
the words "i miss you" are dancing on my lips
once again, alone, crying for you
once again, alone, missing for you
baby, i love you. i'm waiting for you

bye bye, never say goodbye
though i can't hold onto you
i need you, i can't say anything else
i want you, i'll wish and wish again

the days that i miss you so much
the days when it's too hard to bear
the words "i love you" are dancing on my lips
once again, alone, crying for you

the days when you fill up my thoughts
the days when my heart grows cold and i'm sad
the words "i miss you" are dancing on my lips
once again, alone, crying for you
once again, alone, missing for you
baby, i love you. i'm waiting for you

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Love Macchiato
By: Bang Bang Tang (Lollipop)

I know you heart has someone
but who is that someone
you're always laughing and won't admit it
sometimes I really want to ask
from the look in your eyes
know if I have a share

Is that someone from your heart
of course you don't need to understand acknowledgement
just use the look in your eyes to approve
I can again
continue to go in a few minutes
find a reason to
wait for you to be from friends to lovers

Actually a few times
I wanted to open my mouth and say
love's flavor
is like a macchiato
sweetness to mark my heart
even if his hand only pulled your hand
only softly pats your head
fidgeting keeps following me

Rain just passed
this summer is obviously especially hot
when you smile at me
that time
the world suddenly stopped for one or so minutes
how do I describe that moment

Is that someone from your heart
of course you don't need to understand acknowledgement
just use the look in your eyes to approve
I can again
continue to go in a few minutes
find a reason to
wait for you to be from friends to lovers

Actually a few times
I wanted to open my mouth and say
love's flavor
is like a macchiato
sweetness to mark my heart
even if his hand only pulled your hand
only softly pats your head
fidgeting keeps following me

Rain just passed
this summer is obviously especially hot
when you smile at me
that time
the world suddenly stopd for one or so minutes
how do I describe that moment

Rain just passed
this summer is obviously especially hot
when you smile at me
that time
the world suddenly stopped for one or so minutes
how do I describe that moment

Love turns into a macchiato

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Fahrenheit - Xie Xie Ni De Wen Rou (English)

[S.H.E]
Do Do Do Do Do...

[ELLA]
Thanks for your gentleness
Holding love, waiting quietly
My two hands
Are actaully shaking

[HEBE]
But what can I give you?
I'm just somebody he forgets
My heart has been emptied with a sweep

[SELINA]
I will plant you in my heart
Maybe one day
I will finally grow another dream

[JIRO & CALVIN]
Don't know, Don't understand, Don't want
Why, my heart
Obviously wants to go closer
Yet I'm lonely til' dawn

[WU ZUN]
Don't know, Don't understand, Don't want
Why, my heart
The beauty of love
Is always in lonliness

[AARON]
Giving you the best of my best love again

[ELLA]
Thanks for your gentleness
The candlelight that lights up the smile
Only warmness that doesn't disturb my winter

[SELINA]
Haven't decided where to go
That's why I can't promise to let you accompany me
Afraid you will become me

[HEBE]
I will plant you in my heart
Maybe one day
I will finally grow another dream

[WU ZUN & CALVIN]
Don't know, Don't understand, Don't want
Why, my heart
Obviously wants to go closer
Yet I'm lonely til' dawn

[JIRO & CALVIN]
Don't know, Don't understand, Don't want
Why, my heart
The beauty of love
Is always in lonliness

[FAHRENHEIT]
Giving you the best of my best love again

[S.H.E]
Do Do Do Do Do...

[FAHRENHEIT]
Don't know, Don't understand, Don't want
Why, my heart
Obviously wants to go closer
Yet I'm lonely til' dawn

[FAHRENHEIT]
Don't know, Don't understand, Don't want
Why, my heart
The beauty of love
Is always in loneliness
Giving you the best of my best love again

[S.H.E]
Thanks for your gentleness

[ELLA]
The candlelight that lights up the smile

[S.H.E]
Only warmness that doesn't disturb my winter
Haven't decided where to walk
That's why I can't promise to let you accompany me
Afraid you will become me

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shocking

Earlier this afternoon, I was watching one of the lunch time show in the television. It was a noontime game and variety show and in one of their game, featured people who were fresh grad but who already had babies and maybe already married.
Well it's not surprising at first b'coz I know now a days it's already a trend for teens. But what really shocked me was... the two contestants in that show, well... I've heard something about that before but I never had figured out to myself that it really does exist and someone could even said it in the open.
I couldn't believe at first that such a beautiful girl would have a relationship with a guy who is 30 years older than her, b'coz in normal way that would have been the age of her father. And also that guy has his own family. It's happening now... I know... college students having an affair with married guys. So while watching that show, I really focus my attention to what would be the girl's reason. She know that the guy has his own family and even though she loved the guy would that be enough reason to have an affair with that guy?? Wow! I can't believe it! Didn't she think about the family, that she might destroy it or something? Or didn't she thought about her own life, that her relationship with the guy is not acceptable to society and even in the bible?? I'm not against with the girl or what, but it's just like its a stupid thing. Well... even others would say that she had been crazy but the thing is she had the reason for doing it and even though others would criticize I guess she didn't regret anything she did coz I know she did it because of too much love for the guy. But her reason just keep me on wondering... is love really like that??? It's absurd... I can't believe how love could be like that. After sharing her story, I guess I slightly understand her for being like that and then after I had a slight admiration for her b'coz at least even after what happened she had learn to correct her every mistakes.

The other story was of the guy where I thought at first had a child to a college student like him but I was wrong, her wife was older than him, I guess the lady was about 40+ or something and the most surprising thing was the woman had already five children. At that moment, I realized that in love age and status really doesn't matter and love could always put a person into something that you never thought that you would do. Our helper even said that the guy was stupid and crazy, she even said that the guy was like jumping in a cliff. Well... after I just questioned myself... What's in love that people are being stupid?? What's in love that made them not use their mind??? What's in love that it's so mysterious?? What's in love that I can't understand it???

what is love??

I've always been curious what love really is...?
Always been watching, observing and listening to people who are in love...
Asking the feeling and the reason of how they felt in love and why they fell in love with that person...
But no matter how many questions I've asked, still I can't understand the answer and no one could satisfy me with their answer.

I've tried to read the books, but it could not state the real meaning of love.

I've tried to search the web yet no matter how I search no answers had been found.

I've listened to every songs of love however no rhyme and rhythm had let me sing to it.

I've read all the poems still it's so deep that I am so drowned.

I've watch every movies and dramas however it could not show it's real sense.

I guess even though how hard I'll tried, in the end I would still can't and won't understand its meaning.
Or maybe someone somewhere somehow would tell me... But who??

If only angels could tell me the answer...

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"look around you, it's seems that everything is real yet the truth is all of them are fake"

emotions

It's not easy to be a person full of emotions.
Easy to read by others, coz in just a glimpse the sentiment could all break free.
My mask was taken and everything was put in the open.
Immature as they say but eventhough I tried hard to be the opposite,
it's just as impossible as reaching the moon, coz this is me.
When I'm happy, I smile;
when it's sad, I cry
Laugh at every joke
at times get angry when poke
when mocked by others, I get even.
Kept quiet when my mind is in query
when I'm in fear I'm in adrenaline
It's easy for me to show a tear especially when my heart's in affliction.
But there's something in me that I'm expert to hide
It's the feeling of love that I've felt inside
Coz for me...
It's better not to say how "I love you"
But only show how much "I care for you"
Coz in that way, it would be easier to say...
"Goodbye your on your way!"
I'll forget about you by the way
But I know memories will remain
Hidden in a treasure box with chain.
But it could never be open once again
coz the key to my heart had been thrown in nothingness...

इ लव यू .... आईटी'स रियल मेअनिंग...????

4/4/09 2:03 pm
as a little child, I'd always fancy princesses in there nice gowns and shoes, enormous castles standing above the hill overlooking a great wonder but above that all what I've dreamed a lot was the true love they had experienced and there happily ever after life with their prince charming.

5/12/09
I was always been amazed by the true beauty of true love in fairy tales. Of how divine it was. I fancy how a princess would find her true love in just a simple meeting, of how true love would show them who there prince charmings would be. I adore the mystery of how true love would guide someone to find their lost love in just a slight touch in the hand and tell that his really the right one. I am thrilled by how love would last forever and love only one person. That's the true love I've been dreaming of, the true love that I know, the true love that I believed that would be,and a true love with happily ever after.

The true love that could only happened in fairy tales and fantasy but never in reality...?

mine heart

my mind is cluttered with questions... and my heart is embracing variety of emotions.
Emotions that I could not comprehend that my mind is now apprehensive.
I keep on telling myself not think about it anymore.
But every time I did, my mind and my heart just keeps on disobeying me.